wat a world can be?

seriously, i haven’t been working hard enough to put up any offer. die! freaking stress now.

on top of the stress that i am currently giving myself, my team leader was asked to leave this afternoon with the reason contractual termination(but its because of a silly reason). sigh~ wat can i say? speechless once again and i teared. I can’t really accept the fact that the most seniority person is going to depart for the wrong reason. Yes the wrong reason, just because he forgotten the submission of the Cold Call List which he wasn’t given the task to do so tho. Looking at the current situation, if he is going to leave, Angeline and I are so gonna hug each other and cry!

Seriously, I have mixed feeling. Happy and sad. Happy coz I might be promoted (at least my work has been recognized) after what boss has spoken to me previously but I have turned down her offer. Sad as I am going to lose a warrior in our department and no longer has any general in the chess game! I am just a normal soldier and I don’t think I can even uphold the general position. Can’t imagine how life going to be down the road. Rumours going around saying that the mgt might close down the department soon, some said no budgets have been allocated to our dept thus all should just be prepared for the worse. Whether its for the better or worse, I am just staying put as I left with no choice. I think it has been all planned out by my boss. That’s enough said. Arghh. Feeling so so lost right now.

i need to give myself more time to plan for my future and ask myself clearly wat I want to gain in my life. Right now, I just wish to hit the top award this year and receive the cert and cash. JIA YOU!

I must work harder. GOD, did you hear my prayer?

~ by chloecindy on October 1, 2009.